I've been thinking today that somewhere over the years I've stopped truly being desperate for God. I love Him and my faith is in Him, but I don't really spend time with Him that much anymore, seeking His face, getting to know Him more. That makes me super sad:( And strangely I don't know how to get out of this pit. I feel like I've created this flesh monster that is just living for myself and what I want. But my spirit man is crying out inside "I want GOD! I need Him! Seek His face and you will find Him"!. Oh man, I need to get back to seeking His face and being desperate for more of Him. Because frankly, everything else is worthless. I can remember the days when I use to decline hanging out with friends so that I could stay in and spend time with God. He was all I wanted! I was so hungry for Him. And somewhere along the way I got too busy for that. And that makes me sick:(
Lord, please help me to get back to seeking Your face. Cause a hunger for You to rise in me again. Cause me to hunger for you like the deer pants for the streams of water. I need You and You alone!!! Cause me to seek Your face!
