Tuesday 6 March 2012

Here I am Lord, send me.

I've been thinking on this lately. My hearts cry is "Here am I Lord, send me". I'm willing to go to the ends of the earth for Him but when I really think about it there is a lot of fear there. I often feel like who am I that God would use me? I'm just a nobody who has so many faults and failings, so much I want changed in me. I feel as if God were to use me then I would mess up. And why on earth would He pick me? Surely He could choose someone else more qualified and more Holy or more something lol. My hearts desire is to be used by Him to bring people to Him for salvation. But my fear that I'll mess up keeps me sticking my head in the sand and acting like nothing is going on. I don't want to be used by Him to bring glory to myself, Heaven forbid I should or would ever bring glory to anything other than His name! I want to be used by Him to bring glory to HIS name! If only I could just believe in my head and my heart what one of my favorite bit of scripture says, "For you see your calling, brothers, how that not many wise men after the flesh, not many mighty, not many noble, are called: But God has chosen the foolish things of the world to confound the wise; and God has chosen the weak things of the world to confound the things which are mighty; And base things of the world, and things which are despised, has God chosen, yes, and things which are not, to bring to nothing things that are: That no flesh should glory in his presence."- 1 Cor 1:26-29. I need to keep telling myself that over and over, then remove my head from the sand, and let God be glorified!